i don't ever xanga anymore. maybe it's because most of the people that would take time in reading this are not active in my life anymore. i miss you.
the OC sucked really bad tonight.
my back is still real messed up. right now i've decided not to make any decisions.
i'm getting a tattoo this summer. it should be beautiful but i have to save $$$.
my birthday happens to be 6-6-6 this year. i want to have a big black themed party but someone else is having a party the same night. if you know how i feel about my birthday this is a huge deal.
i broke up with chris after a record breaking 10 monthes.
i now regret this decision every single day. i miss him.
i think i should talk to a professional about relationships. i think i will always figure out a way to screw them up.
i dont want to get a job this summer, i wish i could travel around europe.
I like OU but i dont want to be there forever.
I'm stuck in limbo. I dont want to do anything adult like but i cant stop thinking about starting a company and getting married.
I told Katie I'm stuck in ex-boyfriend city. She agreed. I've seen, hung out, and talked to a lot of ex's this week, but for some readon I always do that. I need to stay away from all of them.
Hanging out with recent people (and ex's) has made me feel so crappy lately. For some reason a lot of people who are more religious than me make me feel real shitty about myself.
I;m not being very Christian lately, but I dont care. I think I'm being truer to myself right now than I ever was living in New York.
I miss Dante.
I want so badly not to have so much bitterness towards people. I think I'm a sad soul.
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